indecentfacts

2006-02-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

caught another movie on friday.
Fun with dick and jane,speechless about it.ahem.
girlfriend and i totally forgot that chingay was on that day,so we ended up at the opposite side of the road.STUCK.
haha,stupid die us.

met up with wayne and fish on saturday.
saw maybelle too!:)
miss them loads.

results will be out on friday.
SCREAMS.
gosh.shivers.
not looking forward t it,at all.argh.ciaos.

2006-02-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

Its OUR second:)
Watched Fearless with girlfriend today.
Its really nice.
kinda a movie maniac week for me.
Caught three movies already.
I Not Stupid Too,was Great.
Make me cry like no tomorrow,its a must watch.
Memoirs of Geisha is a should watch for those idiots who thinks that Geisha are white face prostitutes.
Stupid wankers,you're so wrong.

Headed t town after movie and took neos.
Wanted t watch Zodiac,but it wasn't showing at Cine.
Bought a bracelet for girlfriend,and she bought one foe me too!
Thanks darling,happy second anyways.

Opened all my angbao le,yea call me a rude kid.
I just need money,haha.
Gt 275buck,doubt i'll get anymore anyways.
Gonna get result in a few days time.
Bites,super scares.
But its of no use,so..party on!Lol.

Starting work on Sunday,sucky.
I wana quit la please.
Woah,its kinda long sia this blog.
Shall end here.Byes!

you held me hostage,in your heart

2006-01-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

work die me this few days please.
lousy pay,long work hours.
and gf just reminded me that the $12 i got for working 3 hours is not even enough t cover my $15 cab fare.
screw this job.
but i shall be nice and work till new year for them.

bought my shoes at queensway and some stuffs at chinatown with gf.
tops are bought by mom and i'm now left with my er bottoms t be shopped.
when's my next off day?!
I need fun.
-pouts.
byebye world.
(everytime i'm with you,you take a bit of my whole entire heart.)

2006-01-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

been blogging lesser nowadays.
just got a new job,sales assistant at BLFC aka Only U.
started work on thursday,and i've been at three diff outlets this three diff days.
Bugis,marina square and heartland mall.
Bugis had more people,marina square had lesser.
Heartland qyite alot of people,but no need check stock.lol.
some m0re the shop at ms was just next to kelly's shop.haha.

worked at heartland today(7/01/06),will be there the next few days.
had a feeling that i'd see SOMEBODY,and i really did.
somehow my first reaction was t turn away.
ohwells,better than t let you feel that i'm scary or whatever.
Saleha came t find me at five plus six,she left at eight plus.
my taitai and hui jie came down t find me.
they actually went t ms,with jing yi and yani but i wasn't there.haha.
Girlfriend came down with bryan my son at eight plus.

ended work at ten then had er dinner with my girlfriend.
anyway,she cut and dyed her hair purpleish red,SHOCKED.
went home at eleven plus.

my pay is terribly low,so request that i work part time,but i'll work in full time schedule,please say yes!haha.
goodbye folks:)

keep on keeping on,baby

2005-12-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

town on wed with girlfriend.
Saw myLQBZ and MINE!
met huijie for awhile cuz she was in town.
goodness,she bought a whole bunch of kids out man.
i could die if i were her.
then met jess and ivy too.

watched the KING KONG.
gosh,so in love with KING KONG CAN?!
I wanna be ann please.
Heh.
then dinner at swensens.
went t look for my xiaojie after that I went home.

As for yesterday,celebrated coach's birthday!
surprised him at his store.
he bought us to pool after tat.
he's filthy rich lar,my sugar daddy.
LOL,I'M JUST KIDDING!

after parting,i went over to mom shop n got a pair of jean.
its only now then i realise that I haf not spend my salary on anything other than cab,cab and cab.
Rarrh,I need money!haha.

gf came over today,had lunch and dinner together.lol.
anni's in two days,or one day to be exact.
i'm oh so very dead.
PIACKS.
thats all folks.
tata!:)

2005-12-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

been away for some time.
bla.
christmas eve at my gf house.
pub on christmas with gf n co.
Got this jacket from gf as present,super love it :))
Earrings from jess and ivy!
felt bad t actually give the two of them gstring and boxers la.LOL.

and,just now long after midnight.
Some irritant came by t entertain me with some nonsense of their.
What a present for christmas,few cents for good entertainment.
ohwells,haven i been a good kid santa?tatas!

2005-12-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for egos.
kinda mia from the world.
So many ups and downs,gains and lose,love and hate.

Girlfriend ah girlfriend,you better not do what you did again lor.
Tsk.
If not I wont be waving my fist,but my hand,you should get it lar.

Hmmm,life's just so sucky!
lost this friend of mine,for what I'm not sure lar.
There's this pain I feel,inevitably.
I'm not wrong,nor rite.
But,who don't make mistake,not like you don't.
Okay.
Screw it..
It's over,we don't need each other,I doubt you do.
Its just so hard to trust anyone.
Everyone is so untrue and wearing a mask.
Including me I'd dare say,sigh.

Quit my job already,too tiring.
Deprives me of time t enjoy,totally.
I need some fun,haven seen so many friends of mine lar.
I missalotofpeople,plenty.

Christmas is drawing near,i've not shopped for a single present yet.
Cuz I've not got my pay!
And I've to give my mom like half:(
I'll like haf only two hundred left.
What t get lar?!
But I've gotten Zxen her present already:)
And,hamsters for sale!
Please tag me for more info,my tag board's is rotting.
I'm just blogging nonsense.
Byebye dudes.

Quietly,the starlight glows.
Moments shared,not long ago.
The night so dear.
Sparking,dazzling.
The stars and us alone

2005-12-10T14:00:00.000+08:00

at gf's house now.
its two alr and i am working at three.
haha,i think i will be late.

softball rod yesterday.fun fun fun.
too bad i had t leave early.
cuz my gf miss me,and i miss her too LAR.
so went city hall meet her.

first time i was so close with my monkey juniors can.
haha,i became eileen the prawn peeler.
and i got ugly vidoes of liying and YJ,so now they must be nice t me le!
and oh yea,wanzhen got me cough syrup and sunflower,thanks ah.
drank a little with anju,and it tasted like red bull.
MY FAV DRINK! )):

went off at around eleven.
eil,yj and liying pei me take cab.
they have t b nice t me lah.
thanks thanks.haha.
reached city hall at eleven plus plus.LOL.
saw my xiao didi JESS and found a new eyecandy,ANNA.
ate at makansutra then went gf house.
and thats all le.
someone nagging at me,ya da ya da ya da.

BYEBYE PEOPLE!!!
(((((((:

You(vonn)r mine(ethan)

2005-12-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

finally back from my girlfriend's(ethan) chalet.
four days grilling of grilling myself,i nearly died.
Prom on the second night of the chalet,was kinda alright lah.
Both the prom king and queen from my class.lol.
rina and bryan:)
Went t pub after tat.
with anju&gary,kelly&ryan,jasmine&reuben,me&kayboon.
haha,all are 'couples' for tat night.
so fun can,outing again please.

alot of things happened during chalet.
Loads of ups and downs,tears and laughter,HUGS and KISSES!:D
Thanks t JESS,my xiao didi for talking sense into me.
thanks t ah boy for always being here for me.
and thanks secret,for remembering tat i exist.
other them,I doubt the existence of some of my other FRIENDS.
if thats what i call them.
Stop coming t me only when you need me.
Stop claiming that you need me,you don't.
i'm washing my hands off this,for good.

made a few friends or aquaintance at the chalet.
one of them is JESS of course.
got t know kim,amanda,skye,hwee and andrea a little more.
and my gf's sister and bf too!
so love the both of them can?!:)

as for my girlfriend,i'm sorry for throwing my temper like some six year old kid.
but i wont be jealous if you ain't my beloved.
sounds so corny,haha.
but thats the truth la okay:)
no one understand the pain in me.i'll no longer hide in a corner t cry when someone pulls you away,for i'll stand up strong and claim whats mine.
ETHAN GOH,YOU'RE MINE.

for you,for us,forever.

2005-12-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

011205 ; our story:)
#o72o! :D
vOn n EtHaN
Officially Mr n Mrs

2005-11-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

went city plaza in the morning cuz my mom forgot t bring her phone.
passed her phone and went hougang cut hair with ethan.
acc her t work and went down t find my mom.
waited till my mom end work and went home together.
saw that super pretty lady today la,she's a farking hot transman.
haha,i simply cant stop staring at her.
what a man wants t be with,what a woman wants t be.lol.
working tmr le,eight at yck.
ohmygod,go sleep le.byebye.

2005-11-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

didnt go church,too tired.haha.
rushed down for job interview at yio chu kang.
got the job lah,at motorola factory.
haha,one month work twenty days.
mondays t fridays.
one day eight hours and half.
one hour five bucks.
this is not the attractive part of the job,its the OT.
haha,on sat its 7.58 per hour and sunday its 10.10 per hour.
lol,i cant wait t start work! :)))

my mom wants me t give her five hundred a month,thats more than half my salary!
was planning t give her hundred and i'll pay for the house bills.
but i dont dare suggest it lah.

will be working from 630am t 3pm.
booking cab with my friends.
hope i wont be working t cover my transportation cost!
starting work on tues,whee.

anyway went t dad's place t visit my gram.
my dad went out when i reached not long ago,whatever.
bought lunch for my gram then went t ethan's place.
had t rush home as none of my housework was done.haha.
but my mom didnt scold la.

sighs,i've not gotten my single prom stuff.
bye bye lah prom.

its all about us:)
four more days!

2005-11-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

accompanied ethan t buy her phone today.
nokia3230,big deal.haha.
finally watched harry potter.
yay,my happy harry!LOL.
then rushed home t do housework and dinner at hawker.
another great day with her lah please:D

church in the early morning.
ohmyohmy.745 at aljunied station.
morning call anyone?
then job interview at yio chu kang.
i desperately need a job!
anyway,cheer up tai yang lao gong.
they dont believe you,but i do.:)
tatas people.

im putting in all my trust,dont let me fall.
i'll KILL you if you let me drop.five more days:)

2005-11-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

went for wayne' s chalet at four plus ytd.
played at the beach with krys and she pushed me into the sea.wth.
bought mac for dinner in our dripping wet clothes.
accompanied my maybelle t get cab,cuz she wasnt feeling well.
get well soon okay sweets?

got t know this ke ai over there.
hhas,wayne's friend meizhu.
anyway,most of the people there were couple lah.
wayne and mich,yile and zhaolin,meizhu and kelson,fish and bee.
poor me,krys and pam.

started drinking at eight plus,first few bottles were okay,but after that woohoo.
drink,drank,drunk.
played card games with zhaolin and our bet was bottles,blah.

went cheers at ten plus t buy more vodka.
ethan ask me go down find her,but krys and co dont let me go.rarrh.
juli came over after that,kept drinking and drinking.
then krys and juli left.
the other all went upstairs and left me and wayne downstairs.

and this small one of mine started crying,scare me.
it hurts me t see her crying,so i cried with her.
cheer up waynee,im always here and you know your gram is also.
pulled her back up t the room.
left the chalet t go find ethan.
mind was swirling,cant stop the farking tears.
wayne and mich came after me cuz i left the chalet without telling them.haa.

ethan came down t pay for my cab fare.
my eyes got real swollen in the morning.
couldnt fall asleep cuz i miss my bed!
ethan went for work in the morning.
saw some stuffs which i shouldnt.
and cried like fark,so hurting.
left her house at two plus and cab home t cry.
so exhausted,gdbye.

im tired of crying.
you're hurt,but aint i?
every single word is lodged deep in my heart.
the fresh wound ripped open.
blood dripping,tears pouring.
how true can love get?
im trying t hold on.
but doubts keep haunting me.
like the shadows in a midnight alley.
casting the darkness over me.
where will you be?

2005-11-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

slack at home the whole day.
supposed t go wayne's chalet today,but my mom took my keys by mistake and stuffs.
so decided t go tmr with krystal.
i wana get my hair dyed!
i wana get my prom stuffs.
but im THIS broke.
and i've not eaten any meals today yet.
and its elevn thirty now.rarrh.

my secret is so nice.
haha,she just makes me smile can.:)

VONN:whn u're lost in the mist,feeling unloved;alone n unmissed,and if u glanced back,u'll find,that i'l b there always,only one step behind you.
SECRET:i look back le,why you not there?
VONN:it'll be scary if im there.
SECRET:true also.

she makes me go speechless can.
and i found out that my nut likes t eat mud.
dont ask me what it mean.haha
byebye le lah.

poke nut poke nut poke poke nut nut

2005-11-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

sorry,im tired.

2005-11-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

slept till one plus today.
met wayne at city hall about four.
went soup spoon t look for ethan for awhile.
took train t ps.
wanted t watch harry potter with my secret,but stupid wayne didnt want.
deprive me of harry!rarrh.

went t arcade there,saw my secret,cj,hui and cheryl.
then wayne changed her mind and say watch lor,but tickets already sold out.
drive me nuts please.

came down t spotlight t look for stuffs.
went carrefour t buy vodka.
nearly died cuz wayne keep telling me t help her ask people t buy.
but i dont dare,got fed up.
mood was damn bad,then secret came down t help.
thanks secret :)

train back t city hall.
wayne wanted andrea t teach her how t fold something.
and for goodness sake,t andrea,im really very nice okay?!
so stop being scared of me can?
i look fierce,but i really am not lor.
my brain is more cukoo than you think.ugh.
then wayne went home.

went back t soup spoon t pass wanzhen cake and talked with ethan.
and train back t orchard AGAIN cuz cj and co wanted t tattoo but dint know which shop.
reached town around eight plus,secret came t fetch me.
cj and hui tattoo their hands.lol.
pain died them.

cj and secret cab t ps cuz the show started already.
she asked me go down cuz got one more seat,but i didnt.
waited for cheryl t finish and cab t dhoby with them.

took train down t city hall once again and went t look for ethan.
waited for her t close shop then took bus t my place t have supper.

last paper tmr,yay.
holidays,here i come!
tatas.

you'll always be part of me.
in the past,in the present and in the future:)
baby,we're meant t be.

2005-11-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

went j8 with my cousin Jessica t support another cousin Tania in the superstar thingy.
she rocks my socks,but she dint get in.
felt like throwing eggs at the judge.
i dont care,she's my star.haha.
saw yisong and gang there.
they joined too la.woohoo.jiayou people.

took train t dhoby t pool with ethan and andrea.
went ps for dinner.
met wayne,krystal,yile and zhaolin.
thenyile and zhaolin went off.
walked t cine and sent my cousin home.

rushed down t tiong with ethan and andrea.
had t leave my xiaode and xiaojie.sorry!
catch a movie with ethan.her sister and bf.

the movie was dot dot dot.haha.
i was so agitated when chicken little came out t sing that mai-a-he song.
so love it,kept knocking on the chair and got scolded by the girl in front.
bla,i hate you lah.
kns,sensitive head.cukoo brain!lol.

met up with wayne and krys for awhile at tiong.
then ethan's sis de bf sent me home.thanks.
had a fun day ,again.
kinda tired already lah.haha.
byebyebyebye.

everything is negotiable,except the truth.
and every lie has a price t pay

2005-11-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

went city hall in the evening t meet kaesen.
i took the WHOLE afternoon t decide whether t meet her.
i changed my mind for freaking six times?!
so very very fickle minded,i nearly died.
kaesen think she look like construction worker,cuz she was wearing long sleeve.
and her hair was cukoo.
but i dont think so lah okay.
wanted t watch harry potter but think no more ticket already.
so decided t just meet for dinner.

haha,headed t suntec t pass gfren her present.
cuz its her birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY dearest.
and also,happy birthday t adeline:)

went swensens for dinner,damn satisfying please.
the ice cream there was like woohoo!LOL.
then went for some boat ride,at esplanade there.
think its the river cruise or something.
my kinda first boat ride ah.

took mrt home at around eleven.
kaesen pushed me when we were walking home lah.
VONN:how can you push a passive like that.
KAESEN:okay lorr-then she pulls me. cannot push can pull right.
RARRH,feel like killing her can?!
played swing before we went home.haha.

reached home at twelve sharp.:)
super tired,sure slack home the whole day le.
BYE BYE PEOPLE.

im not afraid of falling,because i know you'll be there t catch me.

2005-11-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

this i'll remember,yea.always.i promise:)

2005-11-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a few days.
busy with Os and stuffs.
nothing much going on in my life.
studying,sleeping and meeting some friends.lol.

dunny biught my lunch and a chocolate for me((:
saw gfren at station.
went soup spoon with her.
met up with ethan.
cck-ed and went home at eleven plus.

anyway,
HAPPY ANNIVERSARIES TO;
my dinny ; second month.
my dumbone ; third month.
my taitai ; forth month.

im happy with how my life is,i supposed.
tatas.

trust in me,you are important.

2005-11-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

biology paper on thurs.
sucky like dont know what please.
maths paper ytd,was much easier then prelim.
really hope t do well.
two more papers and its over.
but its dragged for ten days.what the.
looking forward t after Os days.
so many people t meet up can?!
hahaha.

anyway,han's after maths again.
that guy gave us free soup again.
sound so cheapo and kiasu.
went home t change and stuffs then mtt evon.

went town,had dinner and watch the exorcism of emily ross.
the guy sitting beside me was farking gay.
he covered his eyes and ears like ewks.
he went,OHMYGOD when there were scary scenes.
he's like two heads taller than me.
but his guts,think he left it at home.

took bus and reached home at one.
just before the clock struck one.haha.
shall continue mugging for geography now le.
:) tatas!

im sorry,really very sorry.

2005-11-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

three papers down today!
four more days,hurry hurry.
haha,its gonna be over, soon i hope.
biology paper tmr,its so one plus one equal two.
OBVIOUSLY fail de.

Hans for lunch after english paper.
some stupid careless mistakes in physics paper.:(
im feeling neglected by THIS friend of mine,sorry t those friends im currently hanging out with.
treat you guys like spare tyre,feel bad t keep on sticking along with you all.sighs.

my mom went hospital for check up today,something is growing at the left side of her stomach or something.
what a thing t happened in the midst if my Os.
hope its nothing serious lah.
a bit depressed.

but anyway,happy one year plus a few days anni t gina cutie!:)
thanks for encouraging me during this hard times.
you're very much appreciated.
heart you plenty lah.
tatas people.

t my past joy;
as long as we have memories,yesterday remains.
as long as we have hope,tomorrow awaits.

2005-11-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

chemistry paper today.rarrh.
cab t school,ten bucks.what the hell!
breakfast at Hans,that guy there so nice can.
haha,free soup for us!:)

came home t nap and went down t soup spoon t find evon and wanzhen.
saw Mae,and got t know that Qinya's learning blading from her.
what a small world.

had dinner at Thai Express then loiter at station.
saw wanzhen and siewhwee when evon sent me home.
yupp,english and physics tmr.
five more days! :)

i want a best friend,will you be my best friend? :(

2005-11-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

two papers down!
haha,happy happy.:)
but whatever i studied ,didnt come out.
ohwells,maths was so so i guess.

chemistry tmr,headache please.
i wana pass,i wana pass well,i wana pass with flying colours!
good luck t all oce again.

anyway,happy eight months t my xiaode,yeap:)

dont doubt me ,i hate it.trust is a foundation ,once you abuse it,you can never build it back,and i mean NEVER.

2005-11-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

all the best t EVERYONE taking their o level tmr!
jiayou,it'll be over before you know it.
so CHIONG ah!haha.
loves,VONN*

2005-11-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

mug from 1am t 6 am this morning.
im so addicted t mugging.
hahaha,dont take my books away from me!rarrh.

anyway,must thank my ahboy,Kaesen for accompanying me till six plus then she went back t sleep.
my back nearly broke ,cuz i sat on the chair for four straight hours.

slept till one plus today.
will be chionging maths at night.
studying social studies in the afternoon.
and ,i just ate a bowl of expired laksa.
those instant cup de,but only expire one day,wont die right?haha.

maybe some people think im nuts,but studying is really nice?heh.
cuz i got my motivation,my mom ah.
lol,i sometimes so hate her,yet love her.haha.
this is stupid .one more day.jiayou!

2005-11-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

went bedok mac t study with kaylen today.
studied from three plus t eight plus.
i finally know stuffs about chemistry le.:)
hhas,thanks t kaylen.
went down t soup spoo t find friends.
saw zaeron there.
waited till gfren finish her work then went home.
reached home at about one.

its such a fulfilling day please.
finished two of the social studies chapters.
mugging the last two chapter tonight.
if not i wont sleep! LOL.
total madness,studying is sometimes fun.
three more days,into my grave.

its all a bunch of lies.ihateyou as much as i once loved you.
8447890749072277

2005-11-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

accompanied Leoven t her job interview yesterday.
she went off t amk after that.
i went down t city hall t find Evon for awhile.
saw myLQBZ and Ice at the station when i went t find NJ.

headed down t PS and met up with Kaesen.
saw Saleha there too.
shopped around and got a black shirt.
went t other places t shop then went home at about nine plus.

i wana cry,i wana die.
im not motivated t study.
not a bit,will you just kill me.
just feel like jumping off building and die can?
dint even touch my books today.
im falling back into depressions.bye.

six more days t my death date.

2005-10-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

The Best Part Of Fighting Is Makin Up:)

2005-10-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

firstly, HAPPY BIRHTDAY t my dearest beloved dinny hubby.
yes,my hubby! she proposed t me today.:)
haha,im married,FINALLY.lol.

went bugis t meet evon.
passed my hubby her birthday present and went off.
she didnt hug me,always de lah. :(:(:(

went t city hall and went soup spoon.
jess is there la,ohmyohmy.
my eyes keep 'running' t her.
Loowin came after that,im in love wit soup spoon now please.
the people there are like SUPER nice!;)

wanted t meet cheuk t study,but she couldnt make it.
she kept apologising,its okay darling,i understand.
she even called t say sorry.silly please.
headed marina square,then wayne called.
so went back soup spoon t find her.
yile was there too.
wayne gave me my super belated anni present.
chocolate with alcohol in it,thanks xiao de.

we went down t esplanade area t watch people perform.
ate the chocolate and bearly choked die.
the alcohol damn strong and im ordered t finish it by myself.=/
yile left after awhile,we went t suntec.
another cute bung at gelARE.madness.lol.

evon came t join us after her dinner.
my mom called and the same thing happened.
scolded me cuz of a TOOTHPICK on the floor.sighs.
took bus home,reached home around one.
but my mom was like so nice t me.
OH WOMEN,i mean OH MOTHERS.
i shall mug till like mad.
nine more days,screams.
ciaos peeps.

lost in your love,our affair for life!

2005-10-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

town at night.
with gfren,kaesen and evon.
saw this cute bung at M,the er restaurant thingy at cine.
haha,we call her the ice cream man.
super cute. can die.
my eyecandie.
cuz she can make me die.
cuz I CAN DIE = EYE CANDIE.
crap la please.

moodswing again after my mom called.
she didnt allow me t stay out t study.
i cant believe she screamed at me over the phone just cuz of a piece of paper lying on the floor.
she claimed i didnt sweep the floor, but i swear i did.
got so real pissed,so attitude like fark.
sorry t my friends with me.
just wanted t go home by myself,but kaesen insisted on sending me.
didnt talk t my mom after i reached home.
we're like in two dimensions.
she watch her tv,i study for my papers.
didnt even call her when i got home.
mugging till dawn.tatas.

im in such a dilema.it was till today i felt all the pressure on me.
its not that i dont want t make a choise.
but i dont know how t.i cant turn right,beither can i turn left.
so i've decided not t make a choice.
for im not worth of it all.
im walking this path all on my own.
i know it'll be better off when im gone.
be it me being selfish or whatever,im putting it all behind,leaving it as it is.
thanks and sorry for everything.takecare.

2005-10-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

went t soup spoon for lunch yesterday.
met up with gfren who was feeling down.
accompanied evon t raffles t pss her assistant manager,jess some stuff.
ohmygod de la,jess is so good looking.
both handsome and pretty.
my eyes are so very glued t her please.rarrh.

studied fer awhile then gfren went t look for her siser,me and von walked t bugis.
bought dinner for my mom and went home.

mom's off day today,so accompanied her t visit my gram.
shopped for stuffs at bedok.
my mom bought two flats and i only got one.so unfair.
wanted t buy sneakers,but my mom dint allow. :(((
bought four pair of earrings, one ring and an anklet.

went samuel and kevin t buy my beloved's birthday present.
hope that she'll like it lah.=/
dinner at bedok, reached home around seven.
helped my mom t dye her hair.
im seriously not cut out t be a hairdresser.
was irritated by a tinkling sound the whole night,only found out that it was my anklet when my mom told me that it was my anklet.not dumb at all.

going t cut my hait tmr.
prom's coming and im cutting my hair like nobody's business. :D
tatas people.

who will keep the rain from falling into my light?

2005-10-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

got woke up by some irritating people in the afternoon.
no,i will not take Os with Kaesen nest year okay!rarrh.
i'll prove you wrong.

it was raining chickens and ducks around two plus.
why must it be raining cats and dogs?
the awful storm spoil my mood,i hate rain.
it makes me moodswing.

the thunder uncle kept scolding the lightning aunty cuz she kept taking photos with her new camera that has ultra strong flash.
the rain brother kept crying cuz he lost his gfriend,the wind sister who kept changing her boyfriend.
what a complex life they've got and what a cukoo brain i have.
kirsten came t my house in the evening,bought dinner for me.

O level is in less then two weeks,think about it sends chills down my spine.rarrh.
mugmugmug.bye.

dont say you love me,you dont even know me.

2005-10-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

sent wanzhen t work in the morning.
stayed awhile cuz evon treat me drink.
went t kaesen house t use computer in the afternoon till evening.
wanted t pick wanzhen up from work,but wayne,fish and bee were there.
so i left cuz i was supposed t be grounded.
and anyway,wayne's hair is red.
kaesen sent me home,that's that.bye.

not appreciated and unloved,can life get any worse?

2005-10-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

met evon and friends for pool yesterday.
took bus home at twelve plus again.
talked with evon will four at void deck.
but this time,my mom caught me.
didnt really scold le,but i got grounded.
ohwells,whatever.

slack at home today,bla.
went down t my mom's workplace t pass her bag.
then met up with evon for awhile.

hope t bring my gfren go work tmr.
its her first day .:)
ilovemygfren.
cheer up cuz im here!haha.
tatas people.

Happy third month my beloved LQBZ and MINE.
much loves t them. :)

everything's gonna be alright.

2005-10-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

yesterday was moderation day,so didnt had school.
met wanzhen and went t ps.
pool with evon and her friend.
saw kaesen there and talked t her for awhile.
evon's manger came,super pretty lah.lol.

took bus home around eleven plus.
reached the bus stop at about twelve.
didnt feel like going home,so talked with evon till three plus and it rained.
yes,three plus in the morning.
got home at four,surprisingly my mom didnt call a single time.
the talk with evon was rather er nice.haa.
fell into bed right after bathing.
such a fulfilling day,or whatever it is.
yeap . tatas.

nobody gonna love me better,i must stick with you forever.
nobody gonna take me higher,i must stick with you.
you know how t appreciate me,i must stick with you my baby.
nobody ever make me feel this way,i must stick with you.

2005-10-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

skipped school yesterday.
went t dinny's house t watch vcd.
then went home and fell asleep.
wanted t go kaesen house use computer but was too sleepy.
so went down t pass her digital camera and went home.
had dinner with kirsten after that.

science practical today,shit de.
reached home about four plus then went t my cousin's birthday celebration.
crawled with my baby cousin everywhere he crawled.
nearly died,cuz he crawls alot faster than me.lol.

no school tmr,dates anyone?:)

because of you,i am afraid.

2005-10-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

biology practical was like S-H-I-T.
shall nt talk about it de.
went for lunch with classmates.
went out with friends.
in the evening met up wit kaesen and she sent me home.
yup.tatas.

i know you'll be better off without me when i'm gone.
so,shine on.

2005-10-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

went esplanade ytd with wanzhen and a friend.
went home at ten plus eleven.
only slet at four plus.
so overslept and didnt go school today.
anyway,i dreamt of MY MAYBELLE.
haha,such a weird dream please.

went out with wanzhen in the evening.
thanks t my gfren for going through SO MUCH pain with me.
iheartheralot! :)
biology practical exam tmr.
someone kill me please?
tatas.

not my type of girl.

2005-10-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

didnt go tuition.
acc my dinny t her piano lessons.
went t kirsten house till seven plus at night.
ya,im feeling THIS down.
im finally heartbroken once again.

anyway,i've a small one who is so concerned about me that i want t thank her in my blog.
darling,its just a crush,im not going t get married.
dont so CHICKEN MOVE lar.
ilovemysmallone ah.
lol,you'll know who it is seven years later.

and thanks t my beloved dinny.
here in times of trouble and help.
you're everything that i needed. :)
thanks for being my dinny.
ai ni hen shen.ai hi hen zhen. <3
bye.

backtrack into the wrong path.
i found the feeling i've been searching for.
but you've gone away like a flown away scarf.
buried and hidden,but this memory wont let itself be forgotten.
this box i've t climb out,but i find no door.
there's no one t help.
i cry i weep i scream.
im sitting,waiting and wishing.
for the girl of my dream.
this nightmare i cant wake up from.
i shouldnt have turn back,and now,i deeply regret.

2005-10-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

dint go school today,again.
went t kirsten house early in the morning,cuz my mom didnt know i skip school.
then met up with wanzhen at suntec,went candy empire t buy anniversary presents for my dinny and taitai.

then wanzhen went t meet bee for job interview.
my taitai came and gave me a sunflower.thanks!
wanzhen,bee,my dinny and her clique came down.

around seven plus most of them went off except me and ju.
we went esplanade t take photos.
saw wayne and yile.
lol,felt funny cuz i actually told wayne i didnt want t go there.

took train down t find my LQBZ, but she was at wisma.
went t cine.my LQBZ and MINE came down t find me.
finally met her like after so very long.
parted with them.i was in a hurry,so went home.

happy first month t my dear 36dinny din din of joy.
our dinny love affair that will last till the end of time.tiamo

happy third month t my taitai.
thanks for the sunflower.
i like it alot,hope you like the chocolates too.

and happy second month t that dead dumbone of mine.
ciaos.

~~my prince,i love.~~
the smile so sweet,my heart skip a beat.
the laughter so true,it makes my knee go weak.
everything you do,sweeps me off my feet.
t this sweet savory,i admit defeat.
but this are all just memories,deep in my heart i'll keep.:)

2005-10-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

skipped school today.
just dint feel like going.
went t my aunt's place at four plus.
then went t my gram's house t pass her cd.
met kirsten,she bought four bottles of vodka for me.total madness.

cab down t raffles t meet wayne,fish,wanzhen and kaesen.
saw evon cuz they were eating at the place she work.
after awhile kaesen left.

went t esplanade with the others.
drank by the rivert.
took mrt with wanzhen.
yeah, that's all.ciaos.

2005-10-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

played frisbee for pe today.
was fun,but sweat like mad.
english mock exam was bad.could have done better i guess.

was watching criss angel on channel five ytd.
there was this part where he wanted us t go t the tv
and put our finger one inch away from the screen.
while i was doing that,my mom came over and put her finger there too.
i got shocked so lifted my hand.
like ultra dumb lar,
but criss angel is like THIS cool.
all thanks t my mom,she still say,AIYA,touch for what,also nothing.
so if got anyone got go touch or what,
please tell me if there were any reaction between you finger and the screen yeah?
haha,pretty please.
thanksthanks.

happy eighth month t my dar,eva.
time passes so fast please.
the missing puzzle from my life,makes my life complete.:)
heart you loads.

happy seventh month t my gFREN also.:)
drifted alot,i know.
but,ohwells,things cant change i think.

anyway,thanks t GINA THE SUPER CUTIE for giving me some great encouragements today.
im motivated! tatas.

2005-10-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

memories of loving you madly.
the past is searching for you.
i can no longer use love t bind you.
look at me in my eyes.
let me into the corner of your heart.
i really miss you so .
everywhere i turn,your shadow i see.
you are the one i want,my heaven forever.
far like stranger,i cant reach for you.
love that cant be awaken.
i know its wrong t want you so.
looking at you from far is worse than death.
no more lonely love.
cast my silhouette in your eyes.
even its only a little.
i hide my love for you in lost memories.
even if i would t cry.i'll still love you forever

2005-10-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

tuition at nine in the morning,but i only left house at nine.
went t my mom's place for lunch as usual.

head home at three plus.
slack and drag my time as usual,so was late again.
agreed t meet up with Vivian so i can hug her for like oh so long.
talk t her for awhile then met wayne,wanzhen,ice,fish and bee at cine.

me and wayne went off t taka when they four went heeren,we were like so extra there.
wayne went t meet minpei.
and we went over t ps t meet up with fish and co.
took so many FUNNY photos,i swore i laugh died and back alive.
fish went off not long after.
saw beat and her best one.

dint wanted t go city hall with wayne and co cuz wanzhen was meeting her friend then wanzhen and ice is couple.
but things wasnt as bad as i thought though i got a little pissed when wayne kept hurrying us.roar.
met adeline at suntec,arcade and went candy empire.

wayne sent adeline t the station.
the three of us went t esplande and took nice nice photos.

wayne came t join us after awhile.
went t the river there,wanted t sit boat,ha but no more trips.
went under the bridge and talked.
found out some stuffs.
both good and bad i guess.

left at eleven plus.
wayne took bus and we took mrt.
alighted at aljunied .
went t the bus stop together.

my mom called when i was on the bus.
she just dint believe that there was bus at such hours.
kept doubting like me, what the hell.
i even asked her t come down pick me up if she didnt believe.
but she didnt.

will be mugging like fark tmr.
i might just die with my books.
haha, tatas! :)

i may be the special one for you,but you're presious one t me.
i've not been hurt for very long time,thats cuz i've not loved for a long time.
keep falling into this dilema,i need space t breathe.
searching for this hidden love that can never be found.
too many lies,too many games.

2005-10-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

reached school at eight plus today.
went t have tea with my vice principle ah.lol.
went home after school.
met kaesen cuz wanted t borrow camera from her.

rushed down t suntec cuz wanted t buy chocolate for my small one.
i walked die.the shop is like farking far.
was late when i reached ps,but its for a worthy reason alrights.
dint manage t meet krystal t study,im sorry.

went t cine then taka t eat.
and back t cine,saw Vivian my ex PL.:)
me and wayne wanted t take neos at heeren but when we ran up,
the shop close le.

took bus home.
tuition again tmr,yawns.
ciaos.

my feet dance more lightly.
my heart beats more quickly.
my eyes see more clearly.
my mouth smiles more easily.
all because of you. <3

2005-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

lousy day in school.
english mock was ultra sucky.
tried t run out of school during recess but failed.
total ambarrassment when we had t went back t class.hur.

stayed back for chemistry practical exam skills talk.
went t bugis t meet Wayne.
laughed died me.
Wayne tells me that when she turns eighteen,
she yao qu zuo,zuo le then qu chiong.
broken english translation is,
she wants t do,do already then go chiong.
its up t you t think what kinda message she's trying t get through.

went home at eight plus.
got this aunty who stood in front of me kept rubbing her ass against my knee.
i dont know how t explain how she did it.
but it was super eeyer,period.
i like big butts and i just cant lie.
its only a song.
byebye.

2005-10-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

Had grad service in school,was really nice.
cried when my taitai hugged me, oh so emotional. Haa.

extra lessons till three plus.
rushed home t change.
met up with that XiaoDe,Wayne around five plus at city hall.
planned t go esplanade study.
couldnt really concentrate.
went t suntec till eight plus then went home.

this Smallone of mine is going through some hard times,
but no matter what i'll be here for her.
so mushy please.blah.
tatas people.

2005-10-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

My prelims results sucks.
period. :((

2005-10-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

went town at four plus.
met wayne and look for her present.
took so long t look for this dumb shop.
cuz wanzhen says that its on fifth florr,
but its actually on the forth.
Evon came t meet us cuz she wana pei me home.haha.

Took bus home around nine thirty.
Got this weird weird uncle keep looking at me and smile and smile.
i was like super stressed and dont dare look in his direction lor.
accompanied evon t wait for bus then went home.
school tmr,here it goes again:D

2005-10-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

tuition in the morning.
went t my mom's place for lunch.
dad came over t pass me allowance.
took mrt t town just t see wayne,thats what she claim la.haha.
then went off le.
less than ten mins in town.
my shortest record la..
then took bus t bedok .
met up with kirsten and had dinner at her house.
some friends of hers drew stuff over the things i wrote on her wall.ohwells.
all the fark up writings.

walked over t Ashton's house at ten plus with kirsten,bought supper for him.
spent so long waking him up t eat lar.
kirsten waited for me downstairs.
took bus home at eleven plus again.

and im crooked for a year!
haha,super stupid.
one reason for me t be happy on children's day though i cant celebrate it.
wo yi sui le.
like whatever lor.byebye.

2005-09-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

went t school at one plus today,cuz dint wana attend lessons.
but was having our last physics practical,so went in at the last period.
wanted t go tp after school,but dint.

went t kirsten,Xy house t help her paint wall.
super fun la,but dirty my boxers so wore her pants.
i was more like painting myself than the wall.
my first time ma,cant blame.
we only painted one wall of her room.
as for the other wall,dit paint.
but i left my handprintS all over.
then watched tv and snacked.
sweet savory.:)

she walked me t my aunt's house find my cousin.
was hungry, so met up with two other cousins t eat supper.
had t walk across this big field with Ashton my cousin.
hold t him like hell,cuz he say got alot of frogs,scare die me la please.
was like donkey years since i had so much fun with the.
my two boy cousins are like THIS handsome.drools.

tok bus home at eleven t catch ju on two.
hah.tution tomorrow.
tatas!

2005-09-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

Another typical day in school.
Had adam khoo workshop.
went t my form teacher's mother de wake.
went home at seven plus.
wo zhen de hen lei le.
Bye..

2005-09-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

Getting rides from my 36Dinny's dad everyday.
so don't have t worry about being late anymore.
Got back biology prelim paper today,failed as usual lar.
suddenly feel the o level monster creeping up on me,nearly broke down.
starting t feel that everything's just too late.Screams.
i know i SHOULD study,but i just CANT.

went t city plaza with Liang Jun and Anju after chemistry practical.
then went t singapore post.
left there at about six plus.
this is what i call BU JIAN GUAN CAI BU DIAO LEI.
ugh.ultra stress.tatas.

just feel that you're keeping a distance from me.
we drift further and further apart.
dont tell me no.its too obvious.
somehow its upsetting me.
tell me whats wrong will you?
im falling apart again.

anyway happy one month t mySILLYSWEETSTALKER.:)

2005-09-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

i'm still losing it all.
Nobody gives a damn.
Have i got no friends?
i give what i can in a friendship,and what do i get back?
I'm still expecting too much.
Lower my expectations and it won't hurt.
like real,truth hurts.
it always does,i don't want t go through another depression.
cause it just sucks.
Don't tell me you care,when in your heart there's no place i bear.
This girl need some real friends.Ciaos.

My new motto in life.
I must study.
i ought t be studying.
i should have studied.
i will study.

2005-09-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

I'm losing it all.
NEGLECTED.
Adios.

2005-09-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

skipped tuition in the morning.
too tired t attend lesson.
my small one ask me t go ice skating,but just dint feel like going.
went t parkway parade with my mum for lunch.

was waiting for bus t go bugis t meet anju,buy liang jun birthday present.
but shr had t find her mother so she left.
but still headed t bugis t meet my xiaojie,
was reaching bugis already when she called and tell me she had family dinner.
how nice lar,everyone suddenly love their family so much eh.
was all alone at bugis lar,so asked xy down.
went t Mindustries and saw this nice shirt.
wanted t ask how much it was,but dint dare.
told xy t ask for me but she don't want.
so what the hell lar she.
made me leave bugis with a question mark in my heart.ass.

went home at seven plus.
today was a darn unpleasant day lar.
dint start off well and end off horribly too.
feeling neglected by some friends of mine.
people just never change
obviously their partners are more important.
i'm still learning t be oblivious t it,but it aint working at all.
ciaos.

2005-09-23T12:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at twelve plus today de.
no school again,haa.
wanted t just slack at home.
then Wayne called me,asked me t go town.
asked kaesen along.
kaesen came t my house here t fetch me,cab t plaza singapura t meet Wayne.
saw myXIAOJIE and PAM.
so very qiao please.

walked t cine and had lunch there.
drank absolute vodka,lotsa it.
kept pouring and pouring into my sprite,
in the end my drink don't even have sprite taste.
super drunk after drinking lar,
but it took effects only thirty minutes later.lol.

went t heeren cuz i wanted t buy boxers.
Wayne bought this nice shirt.
wanted t buy my boxers at 77th street,but too ah pek already.
kaesen suggested we buy quiksilver de,cuz nicer.
thought it'll be ex,but kaesen paid for me.
lol,twenty bucks plus for my first boxers!
thanks my boy.

couldn't even walk properly,had my red blusher on again.
walked t ps t meet yile and zhaolin then me and kaesen went off.
cuz i was super ultra giddy,then we took bus home.

sat at my house downstairs for awhile,cuz my face was really hot.
went home at ten plus,told my mom i drank.
she was like,i know cuz your face is red and you got the smell on you.
she nag at me for awhile then went off already.lol.
watched ju on then went t sleep.
scary like don't know what can.
ohwells,tuition tmr.
studying with my xiaojie also.:)
anyway,happy second month my beloved MINE,
my sweet LQBZ and my dearest XIAOJIE!
i so love them please.:)
tatas.

2005-09-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

No school today,yayness.
Went t Kaesen house at three plus.
Used the computer and drank vodka,alone.
Cuz she was studying like what the hell.Hur.

I'm trying t learn how t make blogskin,and need lotsa help.
So if anyone is kind enough t give me a hand,please tag me.
Thanks load.

And anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY t eeleen! :)
Stay as sweet as ever alrights.

Kaesen sent me home at nine plus.
Most probably gping out with amanda and co tomorrow.
Nothing much t blog already.
Tatas.

2005-09-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

had physics paper ytd,was quite okay i guess.
then went t study after that.
reached home before eight t tape shows for my mom.

had biology paper today.
sure fail de please.
came home right after school.
wanted t go kaesen house,but too sleepy and lazy.

got prank called today.
on BOTH my phones.
the first time was my starhub number,picked up and heard shuffling.
the second one was on my the other number.
the person asked do you know who i am then put down.
some girl i don't know who.
some people are just so free i guess.

clubbing this sat with my bitch and xiaojie.
anuone?lol.
no school this thurday and friday.
cuz i've no paper,seeing green?:)
tthats all today i guess.
ttfn.

we share moments that'll last till the end.

2005-09-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

no more depressions already.
cried till i sleep last night.
i've come t my senses.
its just a crush.
feelings eventually fade.
go find your dream girl yeah.
i will never forget what YOU say.
its all just a game,a fling.
the end of you and me.

2005-09-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

tuition in the morning.
was late for fifteen moniutes,but i don't give a damn.

in the afternoon,went town with gFren and my juniors;ShuFeng,Liying,Yj and Ak.
went t watch the red shoes.
i scared die and back alive.
scream till i got no voice,at least it is freaky t me lor.
dinner at cine with them.
then went home cuz my juniors could not go home late.

reached home at seven plus,a few minutes later,NJ called me.
so i went downt t esplanade t meet her and her friend.
my kor,Olga saw me there and message me.
is it our fate or is our country just too small.
the first time i was at changi airport,then marina bay and now esplanade.
thats like the east,south and centre of Singapore can.
maybe one da i'll just bump into her at boon lay lor.
but thats kinda impossible lar.
then drank a little and fag a little there.
hmmm,ya just A LITTLE.
got happier and happier as the night darken,like real.
then my xiaojie called me.
so decided t meet her.

left esplanade at eleven plus.
met xiaojie at dhoby ghaut,let her wait for quite long de.sorry.
even made her miss her last train and caused her t cab home.
chatted with her for awhile then went home.
i managed t catch the last train at least.
got really moody when i was finally alone.
cried as i walk home.
everything is like back t square one.
im seriously better off dead,bye.

thought you'll kill my pain,but it seems more like you're bringing it.
you brought me joy as beautiful as the colours of firework,
but as short as the firework too.
thanks for the day,but its all just a fling.
it didnt even end with a goodbye.
no replies,no calls.
its pure lust and infatuation i tell myself.
it better be.
in some point of time in life,everyone will get hurt by someone.
and its up t us t decide if they are worth it or not.
i doubt the tears you brought was worth it.
im nothing t you.
you're not bothered.why should you be?
24hours of joy?
nothing but bullshit.
you striked seven for me,i'm returning twenty nine t you.
this mark an end.

2005-09-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

thought that i was going t have my chemistry paper first in the morning,
till my friend told me tkeep away my calculator.
i was like huh,then they sayits emaths paper one.
gosh lorr,my only chance t pass emaths flew away. :(
chemistry paper sucked like hell lor.
the questions know me but i don't know them de.

went for lunch with kelly and kahang at singapore post.
went t this fast food restaurant which was THIS noisy.
the counter crew was talking like they were at their own house.

the whole place was full of their chattering lor.
then went t city plaza t look for my mom.
left my keys at home,told her not t lock the wooden door,
but in the end she cant even rmb if she lock de not.

went home at three plus.
wanted t go t nique house t watch L Word, but today got date de.
haa,with kaesen.
celebrating our third month today at town.
she came over t my house at six plus,cuz i was feeling a little sick.
she bought me a bouquet of roses,i happy died la.
then left at seven for town.

went t pastamania for dinner,i got no comment about the food.
sketches is so much better can.
then went t take neos at heeren.
slacked around awhile before going home.
actually wanted t play pool,but no mood.
and i wanted t reach home before my mom.

it was ten plus when i went back.
decided not t go home and go play candles.
but t my surprise,we couldnt manage t find any shop selling candles.
so went t void deck and talked.
walked home at eleven plus.
when i reached home,my mum asked if my bf is a malay cuz i was wearing eyeliner.
whatever la she.
watched the japan ghost movie till one plus,scare die me.

something special happened after twelve today.:)
much joy given by my painkiller.
iheartyouloads.<3

tuition in the morning tmr,then meeting AK and SF t go town.
maybe meeting myXIAOJIE and MAYBELLE.imissthemloads.
tata people.

2005-09-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

physics and chemistry practical today.
finished at nine plus,but only got released at twelve plus.
cuz we were in the first shift,so had t be quarantine.
didnt bring food,hungry died in the band room please.

lunch with my taitai and nique.
they bought this cup of grape drink which smell like rotten egg please.
sucks like don't know what.
went t see my softball teammate,huijie do her art.
saw my juniors,AK,SF AND LY there doing lit project.
LY is THIS scared of me,she don't even dare look into my eyes.
cuz she think my eyes are scary.
but the more she was scared,the more i wanted t disturb her.

after that went t tp,my juniors came along.
met AhBoy Kaesen,cuz today is our then month anni.
Happy third month!
lol,then she wanted t give me something.
The necklance is nice,she wrote a story about us,it was like a fairytale la.
ultra nice please.thanks loads.
then we parted.

went t mac with my juniors.
AK's mom think that eating french fries will give us big boobs!how true lor.hhas!
AK was having problems with her girlfriend.
relationship are always a mess,so its better not t be in one.
talked t AK about her problems then all of us left together.

XY came t my house t get her keys cuz she left it here yesterday.
had quite a moodswing at night.
sighs,im having this weird feeling towards someone i should not be really close t.
gosh,its called a crush.
haa,the second one after myTHAT GIRL.
but my er crush know i crush her,and she crush me too.
both of us know is kinda wrong and we'll never be together de lor.
so we kinda make things clear.
ohwells,im quite affected by it can.
what the hell.
shall not nother myself with all this and mug really really hard for the next two month.
white hair and wrinkles,here i come.:)

you're my painkiller,take away my pain.
the sillyone who give me much joy. <3

2005-09-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

woke up at nine plus ytd,cuz was having biology practical at twelve plus.
met my taitai for breakfast.
kinda screw my practical up.haa.

wanted t go tp,but kaesen was studying.
so went home and watch vcds,no i did not study.
actually planned t meet kaesen for dinner,but i was lazy.
so she came t my place and went for dinenr at my house.
very upset that she raised her voice at me.
cuz i mentioned XY's name,ohwells.
nevermind.she claims that i dont act like sixteen year old,
cuz i dont even eat like one.thanks ah.
sent her off at bus stop.
slept at one plus cuz made something for my taitai.
today's our anniversary.

did nt study last night.
my geography paper just sucks.
gave taitai the present.
haa,it was super funny reading the card i made.
some guy pissed us off during recess cuz he kinda spilled softdrinks on us.

emaths paper wasnt any better.
couldnt finish in time.
went t toapayoh with taitai after the paper.
i bought a purple rose for her when she went t collect somethng.
bluff her i went t toilet.
had t sneak t the lift,cuz dint wan her t see me.
gave her the rose at the toilet door.
i wont forget that smile on her face.:)
iheartmytaitailoads.
HAPPY SECOND MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

today mark another special day in my calendar.
got t know myPAINKILLER.
the one always there for me.:)
i'll always be there t soothe the pain too.

XY came t my house for awhile then left.
went city plaza t have dinner.
physics and chemistry practical tomorrow.
first shift but can only go off at twelve thirty.
gosh,wait die me.
might be meeting kaesen tmr.
its our third month anni.
yeah,if you're wondering why so many anniversaries,i dont know why either.
too flirt i guess. -shrugs.
so end here le.
tatas.

you're not supposed t mean anything anymore,but the tears just fall and fall.

2005-09-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTH MONTH t my dearest eva baby! :)
my code my code.
haven been in much contact with you.
but you'll always have a place in my heart.
iloveyouloads.
i'll definitely wait 96months for you t wish me first.
all the best for your prelims and o level! <3
Also.
HAPPY SIXTH MONTH t my gFREN zhen too!
so many ups and downs.
you've always been around.
six months and still counting.
iheartyoutons.:)
gFRENS for life.

2005-09-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

ytd was the last day of holiday.
xy came over t my house in the morning,cuz my leg was hurting like fark.
my mom didnt leave me any money,so kaesen bought me a mac mean and bring t my house.
so nice de can,she even cab down cuz i was hungry.
but she passed le then went off.
watched vcd at home de,xy left at seven plus.
slept at one plus cuz i couldn't fall sleep.

kaesen morning called me at 545 cuz i wanted t study,but still i fell asleep.
my social studies paper kinda suck.
couldn't finish the whole paper,ugh.

went t find my mom at her workplace after my paper.
had so much fun at the workplace.haa.
my mom's bass son was mistooken t be a woman.
an aunty asked him,how come you're a female but u sound like male.
my mom tried t explain that his voice like that cuz he smoke alot.
then the aunty say,haiyo you pregnant why smoke so much?
i laugh until i cry there.

left city plaza at three plus.
went heartland mall t find myPRETTY.
saw Hazel,the girl from plmgs who draws ultra cute giraffes and girls.
she came over and asked what i doing there.
i was like,are you clara or hazel?
haa,she's cute.
met up with myPRETTY then walked around.
saw Beat,her Bestone and Aiping i think.
she's Qyn's friend,bought me a sundae before.

after that myPRETTY and i went home t study.
heavy downpour today.
super cold please,i love the rain when im at home.bla.

biology practical tomorrow,but i don't know what time i'm supposed t report.
i'm just so dead.
adios.

2005-09-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

tuition early in the morning.
i could hardly keep my eyes open cuz i slept at around two ytd.
went t my mom's place for lunch before i went home t change.

went east coast park t meet Ica and Fish.
gFren couldn't come at first cuz her mom was mad with her.
then we went cycling.
it kep drizzling.
actually,i hate t go ecp.
it brings back memories which should be kept deep deep down.bla.

sorry t Ice and Fish ciz i initially forgot about the bbq dinner.
then kinda screw their mood.sighs.

returned our bikes after three hour,my butt hurts please.
then gFren came t meet us.
her mom suddenly good mood de.
we head t eunos t meet Bee.
she look like she's sunburnt.lol.

then we went t marina bay for our dinner.
full die us can.
but it was damn fun eating out with them.
laugh until i stomache.
then we went t arcade.
a precious one messaged me.
kinda mood swing after that.

7months of friendship,yet you're giving all up like that.
am i not worth you trying t be close t again?
it is indeed too precious t lose but too painful t cherish.
this heartbreaks i cant take.
leave if you want t,no one can change how you think,only yourself.
we'll never be close again if you think so.
just t let you know,i'm always here like i promised.

went home at ten plus.
walked home from gFren's house.
my leg is seriously breaking.
studying tomorrow for sure.

find it hard t trust now,is whatever you say true?
i hate t doubt,but somehow i feel that you have amotive for what you are doing.
im not talking about that presious one anyway.
i'm super exhausted miserable life,i need a reason t smile.
all this shit is driving me mad.
i'm falling back into a depression lar.
goodbye people.

2005-09-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NINTH MONTH t myANGELjosh.
you've been the longest one i've been with.
hee,haven seen you since like so very long.
we must meet up real soon okay?
imissyoumuchmuch.:)

2005-09-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

woke up at one plus today.
it just gets later and later.
didnt feel like getting out of bed cuz my ulcers was spoiling my mood.
haa,then gfren zhen came my house.
we're celebrating our sixth month today.:)
she's the bung today,but her hair so screwed.
so she went t cut hair,it looks good after the styling.

we cab down t cine.
my ahboy,kaesen came t give me money.
thanks loads.lol.
then we went t heeren t meet ice.
me and gfren took neos.
then the three of us went paragon's toys't'us.
had fun PLAYING there.
gfren couldn't stand tickling at all.
her voice gets so gu niang when she get tickled.
laugh die us lor.
we bought bottles for our outing tomorrow.
going east coast park with them and Fish.
me and gfren wanted the blue bottles and we will HAVE the blue bottles.

head t scots foodcourt t have our dinner.
saw sean,my LQBZ.
hugged this son of mine,since like so long ago.
she said something t me and my heart broke.
sighs,my heart aches for some reason.
ice bought a shirt from S&K then we went t cine t meet gfren's friend.
wanted t arcade,but changed our mind and planned t go istana park.
me,gfren and ice took neos together.
nicenice,but ice spelt love as evol.haa.

then we walked t istana park.
had this little mood swing.
MYMAYBELLE was feeling down,made me sorta upset that i cant be there for her.
hey,MYMAYBELLE,iheartyouplenty.
and i'll always be here for you no matter what.
im gonna be your sunshine whenever noght falls.<3

sat down at istane park there.
gfren and ice become cai hua zei.
they pluck the flower from some government property.
super funny can,then ice gave me a red one.
cuz she still owe me somethng.

after that we parted,they took train and i took bus.
reached home kinda early cuz i wanted t watch the tales of two sisters!
imissmypretty in camp.
two more days t go.haa.
tatas.:)

2005-09-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

woke up at twelve plus today.
had a little hangover from last night's drinking.
rushed down t tp t meet myPRETTY,Saleha.
wanted t watch the netball match at two.
but it was cancelled.
so we went for lunch and went back for the 4pm match.
kinda boring compared t Singapore's match.haa.

after the match,we went t Bishan Junction8.
took neos with myPRETTY and had dinner.
took bus back t Toapayoh.
Slack outside kiddy palace.
went home at nine plus.
met Xingyu at my house downstairs.
she waited for me since seven plus.hmmm.
she piereced two more liberat piercing.
gosh,so scary.lol.

reached home at ten plus.
watched vcd with my mom.
celebrating me and gfren's six month anniversary tomorrow!
i can't wait,but at the same time.
im upset that myPRETTY is going for camp tomorrow.
she'll only be back on sunday.
im going t miss her alot alot please.
hope this three days will pass slowly for me t study,
but at the same time pass quickly so that i can see myPRETTY soon.
contradictions of life,blabla.
and oh ya,forgot t mention in my previous blog entry that i met beat and her bestone in town too.yup.
ohwells.time t turn in.
ciaos peeps.

im gonna miss you forever <3

2005-09-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

biology lesson on the morning.
suppose t start at ten thirty,but i only rach at eleven twenty.
had pizza treat cuz we did well for our mock exam.
then went for chemistry lesson at one twenty.
which started at one.
ended at two plus.

reached home around three plus.
did my housework then change and went bugis t get shirt from Kaesen.
met up with my sweetheart on the way there.
have her a hug before i left for town.

changed into the shirt once i reached town.
both me and my Xiaojie wear like bung today.
but i didnt bind,cuz i got no binder.
haa,walked t ps t meet my Xiaojie who is known as DICK today,my MAYBELLE,sinyee and tiffany.

went t burger king and played some dumb game with tiffany.
then we went t take neos.
super funny.
me and that pb of mine so scandalous.
HAA,rubbish.

walked t town then Jiabao came t join us.
then sinyee and tiffany went off.
then Pam came t find us.
we bought vodka shots.i drank five in total.
no effects,at first.

sent my Maybelle and Pam t the train.
then went back t cine,ddr with DICK.
that was when IT took effect.
our face red like monkey's ass.
saw ah bao outside the arcade.

slacked in the toilet.
haa,then i changed t my er normal clothings.
Jiabao and Dick acc me t take bus.
reached home at about twelve plus.
my head hurt like woah.

seriously i feel really guilty cuz i haven been studyin for quite a long time.
prelim is like right after holiday yet my books are sitting at one corner collecting dust.
how sweet of my books.
ohwells,but im still going out tomorrow.
meeting my pretty at amk at one then go tp watch netball match and er a date after that i don't know.
haa,maybe i should bring some books t study.
yesyes,i should.
some study won't kill.
i shall turn in already.
anyway,i had such a fun day today with them.
iheartthemplenty! <3<3<3
take care t everyone! :)

2005-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

slept till twelve plus.
headache die me please.
i finally ate my cough medicine ytd.
only when kaesen agreed t let me paint her nails.haa!

nap till four plus cuz my headache was UGH.
rushed my housework then went t toapayoh.
met SALEHA,she's so pretty can.
lol,my pretty.
slacked at toapayoh till seven plus.
i got phobia of that place alr.
cuz was walking t some grocery place.
about t enter the shop then a woman in front of me turn around and scolded me.
use finger t point me lor.
she said some stuffs like your kind of technology spoils my mom brain.
cuz i was taking out my phone and her mom was standing in front of me.
i got so shocked please.

ohwells.
then we went t watch netball match at the sports hall.
super exciting.Singapore won Malaysia. 55 t 44!haa.
then took bus home.

might be meeting my xiaojieKRYS tmr.
we once hooked pinky t jio each other when we turn bung.
but now,both of us cut our hair super short at the same time.
haa.hilarious.
wonder how it'll turn out tmr.
lol.ciaos people.

not willing t make choice.
not wanting t make choice.
not going t make a choice.
i only choose t walk this path by myself.
im better off alone.for now.

2005-09-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

tuition in the morning.
went t find my mom after that.
she bought a new phone,nokia 6230i.
gave me her samsung 700:)
went t her friend's hp shop.
two of the salesperson were bung can.
haa,one of them saw my les badge.
lol,she take the badge t see ask,you les ah?
i was like,er no la.
made so many trips t the shop cuz of my irritating mom with super loads of question.
then the bung came t ask what school i from.
told her and she went,OH..girls school ah.
then i went,no la no la.mixed de -.-

wanted t go out with gfren,but in the end didnt cuz i also not sure why.
xy suddenly came t my house again.
scare me can,tsk.
she went home at nine plus.

my cough is seriously killing me.
i want t die.
haa,whatever.
BYEBYE.

i might seem t be alright,but im not.

2005-09-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

English prelim in the morning.
Lunch with gfren.
Went home t get books and went heartland t find ice and fish.
Was super depressed and upset when fish and ice dao me.
They just dint respond t me.
I felt invisible.
fish only talk t gfren.
I almost cried.
But i ren and ren.
Went t mac t study.
After that they were playing,then we started t talk.
I felt more relieved,but ohwells.
Have been having this 'losing friends' stuff happening around me.
Keep getting emotional over such stuff,sighs.
Anyway,thanks t MY MAYBELLE for being there. <3<3<3
Acc wanzhen go pierce ear,had dinner then went home.
Ice gave us strepsils cuz we coughing.
Thanks ice,but i gave t gfren.
I felt something like kinda funny,so ya.

Tuition tomorrow,haven do homework.
Maybe going t my lover's school for some art thing.
That's all for today.Adios!

I seem t be bringing people t be friends,and end up jealous.
I feel replaced,not important le.. :(

2005-08-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

Town today with wayne,wanzhen,yile.
Met michelle,gave her choco strawberry.
Fish and Ice joined us.
Didnt manage t meet my stalker.
Bee came t join us.
Overall quite fun.
Met Kaesen and Mae.
Kaesen sent me home at night.
Cough died.And back alive.
Falling into depressions.Sighs..

Enough of the finger pointings.
Come t me if you've got any comments.

Enough of the spreaing of MY personal like.
Its MY business,none of yours.

Enough of this broadcasters in my life.
The tv stations might need you but i don't.

Enough of the VON is a dangerous bitch,stay away from her.
Its all in the past,get up and move on.

Enough of my pathetic life.
i might as well die.
Ciao.

2005-08-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

Have been going through ALOT this few days.i swore i nearly gave up.
But thanks t those who stood by me through my up and down.
Special thanks t my small one,my gfren and my taitai,my stalker and my bitch.
They make life THIS worth it.

Anyway,these goes t everyone.
I aint no decent girl,haa.
Like whatever right,but im speaking the truth lar.
So dont take wahtever i say too seriously.
I also come t find out that honesty is not the best policy.
So enjoy lying people.
It wont kill.
Maybe i dont deserve those friends who are decent,put up a wall around you against me.
You're safer that way.
Ciao!

One loose bitch outta control.
Out in the wild,here she go.
Indecent is the name,flirting is the game.
Come enjoy the rock and roll.

2005-08-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

tuition in the morning.
terrible headache.ugh..
supposed t meet up with SALEHA.
but didnt,cuz too lazy t travel.

reached home at one plus slacked till three plus then went out.
went t my gram's house t pass her vcd.
xingyu accompanied me there.

cab down t town t meet wayne my small one,zhen my gfren,my maybelle,kimberly and sharlene.
had a terrible moodswing.

ddr at cine with them.
then fish came t meet us.
supposed t meet my LQBZ but she in a rush.
bee came t meet up with fish.
had dinner at foodcourt.
went t cheers then saw ting and weiling.
bought vodka shots,then walked t ps.
the taste totally sucks lar,taste worse than cough medicine.
bleah.all thanks t wayne.
then went ps arcade t ddr.
dance die us please.lol.
and oh ya,xingyu went off before we went t ps.
then after that my maybelle and sharene went off.
left me,wayne and zhen.

went t take neos with them.
super fun and nice please.haa.
then we sat putside action city and talked.
wayne kept using my phone t take photos.
self obsession for the three of us again.
sent zhen off t the mrt station then walked with wayne t bus stop.
hugged her goodbye.

some stuff which wayne upset me badly.
i got worried like dont know what lar.
please ah wayne,dont ever do that t me lar.

got home at about twelve plus.
was still messaging that wayne.
my xiaojie called me then talked till around one plus and i went t sleep.
no more outings till o level is over,gosh.
i think i might die.
but for the sake of o level,never mind lar.haa.
byebye people.

pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.
you make your own decision.

heard something which some people said.
like uh huh,forever de.im used to it but it still pissed me off the same.
those same comments,please keep them t yourself.
its not appreciated at all okay.
i dont see why im so affected lar,but argh

2005-08-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

i'm back!haven blog in days.
cuz kaesen went for camp.
so yup,nobody t blog for me.
here's what happened in the last few days.

on tues,xingyu came my school pick me up,then went bugis together.
walk walk alr then went home.
received a surprise from kaesen.
she left a rose outside my house,cuz she was going t camp the next day.
thanks load sweets.

on wed,had english mock exams in the morning.
enlish remedial after school.
my small one called me and asked me t acc her.
xingyu came t fetch me,then we went t tiong.
XY bought some presents for me.pretty sweet.:)
slacked at tiong till seven plus,then went home.
XY acc me back t my house there andtook bus home.nicenice.
some stuffs happened at night,was damn upset.
but someone wasnt there for me.sighs

moodswing the whole day ytd.
XY didnt contact me at all lar,so ugh.
then she finally called me at night then we sort stuffs out.

XINGYU came t my house at 615 in the morning.
fetch me t school,but i was late.like whatever.
chemistry mock exams today.
surely fail de lar!ugh..

got a few free periods today,so studied abit lor.
had biology practical after school.
took some stupid videos when waiting for our techer t come.
laugh die me can.:)

hurried the two science experiments in around forty minutes
when one experiment is supposed t be 45mins lar.
rushed home cuz XINGYU was waiting for me at my house downstairs.

met her around four,supposed t go t faith2-2 de bbq,but was sick t do so.
gosh,my fever burning my peabrain!
XINGYU went of at nine plus,yupp.

tuition tomorrow again.
im really very tired.
meeting up with my prince tomorrow.
clear up some doubts with her i guess.
then maybe go outing woth my dearest small one WAYNE!
HAHA,MY BELOVED de.:)
shall turn in early lar.goodnights.

touch me with your words.
feel me with your soul.
love me with your heart and i'll never let go.

2005-08-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

maths mock exam early in the morning,get my brain working and thinking.
lessons were boring.
had extra chemistry lesson till 225.
supposed t meet XINGYU,but couldnt contact her.
then she called manzhen and i talked t her.
dumb de she cab down t our school.

met her with my taitai.
i seriously don't like t hat baggy pants of her please.
lol,but i simply love her piercings!
wanzhen came out t meet her for awhile.
then me,ju and xungyu went tp.
ju left for home already we went walk walk.
ate at mac,then walked all around tp.
from cash converters t ntuc t popular.
i guess thats all tp has lar.
haha,then found out that she lived near my house last time de.
she sent me home,slacked over at my house for awhile.
then sent her off t the bus stop.
she's a funny girl can.

social studies and geog test tmr.
gone case lar,shall go study already.byebye.

you don't need me,not even as a friend.the futile tears.

2005-08-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

moodswing almost the wholeday ytd,cuz of my lost sim card,BUT i found it.
HAHAHA,my mom found it in toilet de.
so now both my number is in use again!

went for ah ben's bbq last night.
came home at eleven plus.
my mom then found my card.
i was doing my housework when a strange thing happened..

at 1124,my phone rang,a private number.
i picked up,nobody answer.
then i heard the song my first lady.
that person played the whole song for me t listen.
i hello for long time,but still no answer.
so i recorded it with my phone.
that person hung up when the song ended.
then called back mins later,1128.
played mr lonely by akon,an jing by jay chou and another english song.
it was three songs in a row.
the music went from loud t soft and loud again.
that person went quiet when all the songs ended.
i floo for quite long,tried t listen t sounds in the background,but nothing.
be it a prank or what,i wana knw who it is.
my conclusion is that,the person don't frequent my blog t know that i lost my card.
or,that person is one of the few who i informed i found my card.
and that person does not know that i use prepaid card.
among all the factors,none of the people i know possesses more than one of the characteristics.
or unless that person trying t distract me,like HURR lar,im thinking far too much.
but if you're me,i guess you'll want t know too,RIGHT?
ohwells,lame entry lar.
ciao.

2005-08-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

lets recall what happen ytd.
tuition in the morning.
went t gFREN house in the afternoon.
use her laptop till four plus then went home t change.
my XIAODE wayne bombed me with miss calls,YILE also.

cab down t town with gFREN after that.
walk walk at heeren,then went cine.
met up with xingyu.
saw my auntyTING there.
met up with my XIAODEwayne,YILE,MY MAYBELLE,zhaolin and co.
ddr-ed with them,wayne and zhen kept changing coins can.
we waited and waited,dance die them.
then jace,mywifePRIS,meihui,huihui,ryan and ian came.
they were waiting for their movie t start.
then FISH came t join us.

left cine and walked t ps.
wayne bought a monkey head keychain for me.THANKS.
Cuz i bought her something too.:)

arcade again,then maybelle and co left.so did YILE.
the four if us then went t take neos.
get so super high with fish around.
she forever got stories t say.
gFREN bought us dustbin accessories.
dinner at yoshi.
then jace and ting came t find us.
shall skip the reasons why lar.
FISH and jace then went t talk talk.
left us gossipping at yoshi..
had t leave cuz yoshi was closing and everyone had t go home in case we miss our bus and trains.
zhen,JACE and ting went t take train.
me and wayne took bus.

reached home around twelve plus,super tired.
didnt do much den went t sleep.
woke up this morning and found that my starhub sim card was missing.
i'm ultra sad okay,moodswing till now.
supposed t go my gram's house,but no mood t.
so don't sms me at 91402656 already.
sms me at 81738907,yupp.
please do tell mi who you are okay.
i ain't no fortune teller or whatsoever.

maths mock exam tmr,yet i have no farking mood t study right now.
SIGHS.you'll never know how important something is till you lose it,ohwhatever lar.
BYEBYE

i dont need that attitude of yours,its stinking bad i tell you.
keep it for yourself t enjoy.

2005-08-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

woke up in time for schooltoday,haha.
mass pe was PAINFUL,gosh.
my auntyTING gave me lollipop today.YAY!

i had five free periods including recess today can.
tried t do some maths but i hate t think.
so slacked after awhile.
i kena attacked by someone during recess.
come step on my shoe like don't know what,HELLO.
i was my shoes by myself know.haha.

school was quite boring lar.
biology was so serious,cuz the vp came t our class.
everyone suddenly so decent.
teacher ask question we answer,haha.

met up with gfrenZHEN after school.
went t toapayoh t watch THE MAID.
that girl was covering her eyes all the time.
i didnt cover at all,training my guts!HAHA.
was smsing my silly all the while.:)
then jace,my aunty and huiping came.
talked together for ahwile.
then went t meet KAESEN,she sent me home.

tuition tmr,hate it lar.
so long can,sighs.
then maybe town with my small one and gang in afternoon.
byebye people.

blowing hot and cold.
drifting near and far.
come as and when you want.
i need you more than i thought i do.
i cried the hidden tears.
the sight of the moonlight reminds me of the sunshine.
don't be so cruel,don't ignore me.
thank you for the venom.

2005-08-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

didnt go t school today cuz i overslept.
forgot t set my alram last night de.
woke up at seven plus,tried not t wake my mom up.
in case she ask me t cab t school,i hate it can.
but she didnt scold me anyway.
my aunty,TING wanted t give me lollipop actually.
so regret never go school at first,but she say tomorrow give me another one.haha.

my stalker,MINDY sms me today,funny her.
Likes t read people blog de,hahas.
surprised that she;s actually DES,my grrlfriend's primary school classmate.
small small world please.

slacked at home the whole day.
helped mom with some housework.
other than that,all i did was sleep,eat and read magazine.
another day that has gone t waste.
gosh,mock exams are coming next week.
and im still on cloud nine,time for me t get down already.

shall be a good girl and do my tuition homework.:)
Ciaos people!

love comes slow as tortoise,goes fast as a rabbit.it is just a race.

2005-08-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

the bus came super early today.
pe was super ultra fun today please.
basketball game with my classmates.
so tiring la,but sweat it all out.haha.

my aunty today got chinese prelim,lend her dictionary.
she everyday also say thanks t me de so silly lar she,haha.

biology lesson was practical,some dumb eye drawing stuff.
but i learnt some facts i never heard before.
like blah.
after tht was physics,left class at one fifteen for lunch.

oral today what,i completely screwit up.
sighs,so sad can.
i kept using the same words lor.
don't talk about it alr.

went t tp t find laesen,actually wanted t town but i too lazt de.
so i had my er dinner at tp.
then went mac t slack and stuff.

she sent me home after that,thanks loads.
reached home at eight plus.
did housework and revised my work.:)
good luck t those having prelim!
nightnight people.

i've already waited too long,all my hopes is gone.

2005-08-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

woke up early today,super ultra tired can.
the bus reached exactly the point when i reach the stop.haha.

combined humanities for the first four periods.
very not interesting,but i did learn some stuff.
after recess was chapel.
the speaker was pastor edmund.
he said he'll be going t plmgss t preach tmr,dont know reald de not.

today is like my free periods day can.
after chapel was 2 chinese periods,i not taking.
then it was a maths which i dropped long ago
then the last period my teacher went for english oral.
so i had a total of four free periods.
that was like quite long.

geog remedial alr then go art room find my aunty and buddy,gave them choco. :)
bus61 took very long t come,so me and my taitai decided t go tp then take another bus.
kaesen wanted t meet,but we didnt.

my oral is tmr not today.
anyway,good lucj t my friends taking their chinese prelim.NIGHTS.

want t be mine?cuz i want t be yours.HAHA.

2005-08-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

took the same bus as THAT girl,but didnt notice her.
my LUST finally sing national anthem with us since so very long,cuz she stepped down as prefect alr.

chemistry and e maths was so boring.
super hungry before recess please.
THAT girl kept hanging around with my LUST can,i think she likes my LUST.lol,oh whatever lar.

my TAITAI,anju had her o level oral today.
she nervous like don't know what can.lol.
experienced some unhappy stuffs when smsing some people.
i don't wish t cause any unhappiness between the both of you,so i better stay away..

TAITAI gave me a rose,for our anniversary,lol.
thanks so very much,i love it.
HEARTYOU lar.

skipped remedial,planned t watch the maid,but dun have.
so went bugis w gFREN.
bought er lunch for MY AUNTY and BUDDY,then went school give them.

met with KAESEN at tp.
slacked around then came home.
eng o level tmr,i'm scared!CIAOS!

friends we'll always be,till the end.

2005-08-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

how i wish the sky wasn't blue how i wish the water wasn't wet.
how i wish i didnt know you..
chafe under your control.
my life lost its bearings.
i cant live with you but i cant live without you either.
meander along love's journey and find that path is my true desire.
reminisce the memories we had,savour the smiles we shared.
my threshold of pain so low,tears outta control.
on tenderhooks all day,the tears dont say.
the sight of you triggers the moments together.
drown in the love i had for you.
my sweet embrace,my bitter memory.
wished that you've been the first and the last.
but cant deny its all in the past.
the love so beautiful,like the fireworks,the momentary sparks.
so short yet so wonderful.
you might not bother about my absence or presence but deep inside my heart.
you left a significant mark.
laid my eyes on you and somehow wish we'd never part.
my loved one,you'll always be.
je'taime..

2005-08-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

first day tuition,didnt even know where my classroom is.
went wrong classroom for my maths tuition,malu die me please.

went home then headed t parkway for lunch with my mum.
saw that 2bungs i saw ytd agn.
met up with GFREN then town.
today celebrate our fifth month anniversary!

dressed as a bung,haha.
im potential,shall turn andro.
ohwhatever.lol.

went t take pretty pretty neos then checked out the movie slots.
missed the movie slots,all too late de.
GINA called me,she was with JOSH.
supposed t celebrate her bday,but didnt.so we decided t pool.

obsession with gfren in toilet,pool was fun.
i played my role as a bung and paid,for almost everything.

dinner was on me,lol.
my XIAODE and YILE came t meet us awhile.
after eating,went arcade find them.
my GONGGONGPAPA went off le,so sad.
PAM,MY MAYBELLE,ZHAOLIN was there w YILE and my XIAODE.
then my XIAOJIE come find us with NIC.
reunion with my daughter.

crap with her like i dont know what.
something is upsetting MY MAYBELLE.
but i dont know what that is,i sincerely hope that the SOMETHING will go away okay.

oh ya,forgot t mention,i gaf my GFREN a rose.
haha,and i bought it in front of her.
sorry la,its my first time what.heh.

sat outside ps arcade with them and talked.blahblah.
my XIAODE keep making me walk rounds with her.
my XIAOJIE promised t jio me once she turn bung,lets see who turn bung first ah.hahaha.

after that played ddr with GFREN.
then left with my XIAODE,YILE,my XIAOJIE and my GFREN.
YILE went home,the rest of us went cine w my XIAODE t get sth.
cab then back t ps then me and GFREN went home.

had a really great day today,looking forward t more of this,after my Os.
so love this company of people lar,haha.
reached home at twelve plus.shall go sleep.CIAO!

am i thinking too much or are we drifting apart.its all in your heart.

2005-08-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6plus again this morning,t fry egg for my taitai.
she bring bread i bring egg. :)

got my chinese o level result and i got an A1.
happy die me please.. :D
was very nervous in the class d,then didnt dare go first floor t see result.
was standing at the second floor and saw alot of people crowding around the board.
i was on the verge of tears cuz super scared de.
then jingyi and pinhua was at first floor then they told me i got a1.
screamed and cried when i went down.
hugged lotsa people.
my gfren,jingyi,anju,nj,tingting and etc.heh.
called my mom and cried again,too sensitive la me.

anyway,happy sixth months t my beloved baby eva,iloveyoudeepdeep please.
and happy fifth month t my dear gfren.
celebration tmr okay?:)

had some career guidance session after school.
went t tp t pass kaesen stuff and headed down t city plaza t find my mom.
had dinner there,my dad promised t reward me for my results.

halfway through the night,ben's fren came.
two transexual or something.
they kept asking me if i had a boyfriend.
i said no,then they asked if i like girls.
i was like hur?
then i shake head la.
after they finish eating,they ask again.
one of them asked if im interested in girls,i smile and shake ahead again.
then she asked whether gotadmire a bit not.
i was like er yeah.
then the other one say,then i'll make your dreams come true and she pulled down her tube.
and she WASN'T wearing anything inside.
my whole face turn red can.
ohmygodnesslar.

took bus home,saw this er bung from stc with another bung.
they seem t see my bag with the badge,'im a lesbian,are you?'
then they laugh.
must be cuz i dont look like passive nor bung.
gosh.i think too much.

tuition in the morning tmr,datin with gfren in afternoon.
hope t meet my beloved up.
miss them like fark can. :)
i hope they miss me too.
Ciaos!

on the verge of tears,all surrounded by fear.
all i needed was a hug,yet you wasnt here.
but i wont blame you for not being there,
cuz you no longer care.

2005-08-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

Didnt blog during the holiday cuz nothing much happened.
only met up with kaesen for a few times and family gatherings.

woke up at six plus t rush my homework.
didnt manage t finish all of them.
Nique said that my new specs make me look more like dp.Ugh.

during recess,Anyi hit my forehead.
i got frustrated the 3rd time and shouted at her.
Dint knw tht it affected her till cj sms .
i was upset cuz i was accused,so i sounded unhappy whn i apologised.
nt apologising cuz of cj alrights.
but we resolve it in the evening.

rushed t tp after remedial t pass t twinnie her present.
i was late cux she was early,my lessons ended at 4 okay.
her gf seem t b unhappy with me,even made comment about putting my present in dustbin.
i almost teared cn.
you said you joked bt after tht you say you speak your mind.
whn i ask the dustbin thg was joke or what,you say up t me t think.
have fun with words whn you contradict.
you could have been a little friendly.

is today an apologising day?
ugh..byebye lar.

ps: i think i'm getting my chinese o lvl result tmr.
please wish me lick cuz im super scared,though i'll need more than that.
but you'll be appreciated if you wish me luck.heh. :)

2005-08-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

strangers in the night.
two lonely people under the moon so bright.
lovers at first sight.
exchanging glances,whats the chances.
something in your eyes,so inviting.
something in your smile,so exciting.
makes me wan t be with you till the morning light.

2005-08-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

i'm under a depression..
cornered t the end of the maze.
i can't run,i can't hide,can't escape.
paranoid thoughts running through my head.
everything goes bang bang bang in my heart.
a volcano that can;t explode.
fire boiling inside,but for what,i've no idea.
tears blurring my vision,but everything will be clear once the tears fall.

i cried so many times today,for things,people,events important t me.
in the morning,cried on my bed.
had a quarrel with eva again.
she just seem so distant from me.
don't tell me you care,you wasnt even here when i need you.

cried again in late morning,my mom quarreled with me.
scolding me for not doing housework and everything.

cried in the taxi when going t my gram's house.
talked t my mom about anju.
though she's right,i don't wan t admit.
i've given alot for this friendship,so much so i expect her t be very good t me.
too possesive,i might treat her as my bestie,but i'm not hers.
i just wished for us t spend a happy day together,just the two of us.
but i doubt that's what you wanted.
you wanted t go t the fop.
i could see that,but i chose t ignore it.
cuz i don't wan t accept the fact i'm not of priority compared t him.
but i'm wrong,very wrong.
i'm a toxic friend,selfish and fark up t the limits.
i wan you t be mine for that day and that's it.
but it'll have t change,and it did.
cried throughout d cab ride

reach my gram house,ate,family gathering and went home.

quarreled with my mom again,we never seem t agree.
and that's how i am.
i'm just this stubborn.

jas sms me and told me the stuffs she did with my crush when they went out.
i broke down once again,but i'm no longer bothered.
deleted all the contents in my phone.
no regrets,for all that will be the past.
had dinner and then someone sms me.
told her i depression,i cried AGAIN when she apologised.
when she duno what happened.
don't apologise for the sake of apologising.
i wanted t go out with you ytd.
but you didnt contact me.
and you say cuz you thought ryan replied.
not blaming you,just feel that i'm insignificant.
t you,t everyone around me.
i'm really very tired of cruing.
i'm sick of my stupid attitude.
why am i like that?
i just can't seem t change.
i don't deserve friends.

just feel like pushing everyone away from me.
including kaesen,don't be so nice t me.
i just a bitch alrights.
don't be so silly okay.
contradictions all around.
expecting people t care,but i just won't let you care.

no,it's not the point of the month which i've t behave like that.
its the time of my life when i've t learn t change.
always talking about changing,but a leopard cant change its spots
like von cant change her attitude.
i guess i need time,for what i don't know.
all i know is,i'llbe gone.for some time,how long,its anybody's guess.GOODBYE..

2005-08-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

06/08/2005=one word.
SUCKS.

national day wasn't fun.
thanksgiving was still as boring.

went home with anju t change.
head t my old primary school.
took photos then left for town.

ate at cine,took photos at heeren.
pooled at meridien.
went home at six plus.
i dint wan t go t the fop.
firstly,im not the interested in it.
secondly,i don't wan t be the light bulb.
i guess it'd been bright enough in there.
not like i never told you,i don't like 'threesome'.
i hate it t be homest.
don't tell me you won't go t him,in the first place,you'll be meeting him,like duh.
dint wan go meet my primary school friends either,cuz i'm not into steamboats.
i've got something up with my attitude.
take it or leave it.

just wishing for a whole day with just you and me.
i'm selfish,i don't share.
call me a psycho or whatever.
he can have you on monday for all i care.
someone did not reply.
neither did eva and kaesen.
screw it.BYEBYE!

2005-08-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

nearly miss the bus tiday again,my hubby take same bus as me.
mass pe was super tiring please.
my knee hurt like don't know what when doing puch up.
the road is like so hard and rough lar.gosh.

played netball duringrecess,and i suck at it,haha.
today's lesson passed very fast.
i dint seem t study at all.
cuz was taking photo with kaesen's digi cam and handphones.
self obsession is very fun,trust me.
got pissed by a guy in my class today,shall not say who.
but he should know who he is.
so does my classmates.
i lend you my t-shirt marker on my own,but you should know your limits okay.
since you're not wearing the shirt tmr,why draw on it?
redundant actions,guys!

biology remedial after school today.
ended at exactly four.

went t city plaza w kelly,waited for my mum t finish work then went home.
shall turn in early,long day tmr.byebye.

since you ain't bother t meet me,then forget about the whole thing.CIAO!

that girl.

2005-08-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

Another boring day at school.
so no need t blog much about it.

the only thing worth talking about today is THAT girl.
saw her when going t the hall.so cute please.
had same recess wit her today de.
she sat at the table near mine,her sister's clique sat beside her table.
she looked over and so did i.
total madness can,hahaha.

accompany my friends t their a maths class,THAT girl came t talk t me.
and the first ever sentence she said was,'where's jasmine?' or something like that.
i said i don't know and she asked again.
it all happened so fast,i can't really remember anything.
and thanks t that dear LUST,jasmine she talked t me.
but not exactly what i'll wana her t say.hahahas.

when went for lunch,my LUST went t say hi t her,like what the hell please.
so irritating can.tsktsk.

went toapayoh t find kaesen.
she passed me the camera and sent me home.

shall really do my compos,by myself.
hope t meet up with my baby tomorrow,
she seem t be gone.never replyme,
sighs,ciao people.

itsnotaboutyou

2005-08-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

late for school today,tsk.
hockey for pe again.
brought cake for my friends t eay,played tennis during recess.
my maths teacher scolded me for not changing into our uniform.

eng remedial after school.
teacher wasnt there,but had a relief teacher.
went art room t do some stuff.
saw THAT girl play badminton. :D

rushed home t do hsewk,but still got scolded.
ohwells,have t go rush my english hmwk alr.
byebye.

denial was in your eyes,love was there at sight.

monkey business.

2005-08-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

dreamt that i was late for school.haha.
bus was damn crowded this morning.
took class photo today,so fun.

Emaths remedial,enna came t join us for .
and got diss by a guy,he's so mean.tsktsk.

went art room t find pinky.
lotsa people were there,got my ex gfren,mytianmimi,my grrlfren,my wife and someone.
i bought some sweets t distribute.how nice.
i drew on someone hand she kept dissing that there was a reason why i not in art class.
thankyou ah.
it's your honour t get drawn by me.haha.
she drew on my hand too,in the end,my hand look like it just bleeded.
i wanted t leave,but they don't let me.

sorry t kaesen.cuz i was supposed t meet her at around five.
i only reached bugis at about five plus six?
cant really remember,walked around and had dinner.
after that she sent me home at eight plus.

very sleepy please.
just realise that nobody tags my board,hello!
if you're here,please tag.
don't make me look oh so isolated.
get that, EVA?
hahas, same for everyone okay.
Tatas! :)

she's back,i'm gone.

2005-07-31T14:22:00.000+08:00

woke up in the afternoon today,met up with small one and maybelle at tiong.
my LQBZ(sean),michelle and adora then came find us and went t queenstown.
my BOOBHITTER(linsin),my GONGGONGPAPA(huiyan),my new DOOR GOD(eliz),pam,zhixian,krystal and jiabao were there.
had some LYING problem,but solved alr.
no more LUANQIBAZAO family,but i still have my LQBZ.

went t town,my small one and my LQBZ bought us roses,this is my forth rose for this month!
HAPPY DIE me.
thanksthanks.
then went t cine and met up with my chef..
while walking t heeren,my gonggongpapa unhooked my bra and she SUCCEED.
like what the hell,i was so farking malu.
then everyone block me and they help me hook back my bra,in the middle of nowhere.
i so felt like killing her please,my very first time,like whatever okay.
had lotsa fun with all of them.
after that YILE came,HELLO,LINK ME AH.
then someone and ryan came too.
the others went t ps,we went cine and ate.
they came back t find us and went play pool.
my tianmimi(mehui),tingting,wei ling and fish came t meet us,separately.
i laugh died playing with them can.

played pool till one plus then cab home.
someone was this rritating throughout the cab ride,i hate you la.
like so noisy please.
gosh,tired but super fun day!
back t studying again.
sighs,how pathetic.
ciaos!